One of my hobbies is playing in a fantasy baseball league. The league I am in is more involved than most. It is set up to emulate the real Major Leagues as much as can be. One of the best parts about fantasy baseball is the draft. Every year I get prepared for the draft by figuring out what my team needs and looking over the available players. I plot a strategy and plan out how I will go about improving my team.
As I pour over the stats, rosters and draft lists, I try to figure out what the best course of action would be. Do I try to trade? What players are expendable? What players are worth holding onto? Do I need to make a move to free up salary cap space? Is this player a real prospect or should I drop him and move on? Will this guy be available in round 3 or should I take him earlier? As you can probably tell, I put a lot of thought into my team. I do know that whether I win or lose doesn’t really matter. The league is for fun and making a mistake has no effect on real life.
Often in life we don’t really know if we made the right choice or not – we don’t have the ability to see how things would have unfolded differently. We usually decide if a decision was good or bad based on if it worked out well, but we don’t know if it was the best, or worst, outcome. I am happy with the house I live in. It’s not perfect, there are things that need to be fixed, the water heater quit 2 days before we hosted 21 people for Christmas dinner, but I do not regret the choice we made when we bought it. Was there a better house? Maybe, but I would say we made the right choice.
Sometimes things don’t work out the way we hoped, but it doesn’t mean that we made the wrong choice. Maybe none of the paths we had to choose from were going to work out well. Sometimes, we make the choice we have to and live with the consequences. 18 months ago I make a career decision that didn’t work out the way I had hoped, but I believed it was the right decision.
As Christians, when we are faced with choices in life, we should seek God. I know that I try to, but I wonder if I do it the right way. I consider myself to be intelligent, and I approach most issues with the belief that I can figure it out if I think about it long and hard enough. Often when I face a decision, I pray about it. I also think about it. I ponder the pros and cons and evaluate the potential options. I generally come to a conclusion at some point in the process. The question is, how much do I rely on God and how much on myself? Am I allowing God to guide my thoughts, or am I praying for Him to confirm my plan?
I have been struggling with this a lot lately. It seems odd because I am not making any major decisions. There is no career change, relocation or any other life-altering events on my radar. I have just been questioning whether when I seek God’s direction can I be confident in the answer I believe I am receiving?
I am not sure how I can know. The issue is not whether or not I believe God is trying to tell me, or if I am capable of hearing it. For as long as I can remember I have tried to walk with God and allow Him to lead my path. Have I trusted God long enough that it has become second nature? Or have I become so arrogant that I think my thoughts are His?
I don’t have a nice answer to close off this post, but I do have a plan. I will continue to seek God; to seek His will and ask Him to help me discern it. I will ask Him to help me to let Him work in my life, without me interfering – to humble me. I believe that God is faithful; if I honestly seek Him, he will not hide, and if I truly allow Him to lead, I will walk on the right path.